Trust is like a chicken egg.

In the TV show Babylon 5, the alien race referred to as the Vorlons had a saying. Understanding is like a three edged sword. Your side, their side, and the truth!

Recently I had a trust issue with someone close to me. I encouraged him to read a story I had been reading. Shouldn’t be a big deal, right? The problem came up that in his own excitement, he managed to trample on the trust I had for him. He decided to gloat about his newfound relationship with the author of the story.

Now I’m not sure where things are. I know I’m as stubborn as a mule, but I still haven’t forgiven him. I told him that trust is like an egg shell, and once crushed, it isn’t easily rebuilt. This is where things get difficult.

Do I forgive him? If so, why? I haven’t done anything wrong, he was in the wrong. Sure he apologized, but then people do that these days usually with little meaning behind their words.

So what happens now?

Do I make him re-earn my trust? Do I even want him to re-earn it?

Or do I just want him to go away, like a fly swatted for buzzing too close.

In this case, I honestly don’t know what to do. So far this is something sleep couldn’t fix. But then there are only a few things in life that sleep can fix. It also doesn’t help that other evil drama in my life has happened, and he’s probably getting part of that too.

I just don’t know what to do about him.